Money and Pain

In light of my last post, even though I still stand behind it, I have to acknowledge that worrying about money is really hard. Negative feelings and thoughts around it are so difficult to kick, ESPECIALLY when you're really poor. Many of us have trouble paying attention to anything extra that could benefit us, due to the slavery we're subjected to. And many of us were exposed to it as young children, through our parents' struggles. It's a vicious cycle, it's hard-wired, and it won't just go away overnight.

As someone who knows poverty first-hand, I find that the most painful aspect is the shame I feel when I'm lacking. The resentment I feel toward myself. And what's more crippling than that? That self-scorn gets in the way of dream-fulfillment, goal-achieving, even mustering up the simple courage needed to request a raise at a piddly job.

"Why can't I just get what I want like they can? I must not be worthy."

"There are so many financially-free people out there who came from poverty, so why can't I get out of it already? I must not be good enough."

"Different people and resources are telling me that increased prosperity is achievable in self-sustaining ways, but why does it seem so surreal that I could actually have that, too? Maybe because it can never happen to me."

I relate to this all SO much. What I've learned from the people who have achieved greater prosperity from an impoverished starting-point is that they persevered. They went through the same hurtful processes that I'm talking about here, but they persisted. It seems difficult to imagine how they kept-on-keeping-on, but that's really what sets them apart. It's simultaneously simple and obscure.

Even though I still get very much caught up in the negativity around money, I plan on persisting through it all too.

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